This is a repost from a dear friend’s blog: keviana.com
Hey, I just wanted to address something no one ever addressed for me… After every miscarriage, I both felt and thought I was an “American dream” and “Christian wife” failure. And I hurt— really hurt— on the inside with identity loss. My thoughts became really solid after my last baby’s passing, and they said, If […]
Hope: My Miscarriage Hope
Writing a blog post is harder than it looks! Words swirl in my head like white, fluffy puffs off a mature dandelion! Would you believe I started blogging before blogging was a thing? I found my first blog rant recently and it looks like this:
9/20/04
What is this?
Whoa. I have no idea what a blog is.
I deleted that blog after a year.
In 2011, I started again. Twenty posts over three years. I deleted THAT blog!
Determined to put my creativity online, I started another blog in 2015. That year, there were two entries. Can I at least get a shout out for my doggedness to not give up?!
Life gets in the way.
And I wasn’t getting any younger…here’s a post I wrote in that timeframe:
No, I was not practicing my craft. AT ALL.
Remember 2020? What a bombastic year it could have been to be creative! Everything went virtual that year! Alas, I started yet once more in December 2020. I even created and paid for a domain name! Hello. I have a vision and it’s gone nowhere for such a long time!
One post. Each year. For three more years. Will I ever get some momentum going?
YES! THIS IS MY YEAR!
Last fall, I started a little accountability group. I needed my very own scribe tribe. I called myself a writer and I didn’t write! Not even in a journal. (Occasional rants on Facebook don’t count.) I told my little group I was going to start a daily journal again and write every day. When the annual fee posted to my bank account, I told my little group, “Okay, 2024 is my year. I’m going to post at least once a month.”
My daily journal is half full. And I have published my first entry for 2024! And I have writing buddies spurring me on and making me accountable. I’m so grateful!
This isn’t what I intended to post today, but here you go! It’s just a rant post! I’ll craft a substance post before the end of the month! In fact, I’ve set it on my calendar to do on January 30. Hold me to it!
I just thought I’d put it out there…never give up on your dream. I’m not! More entries forthcoming in 2024!
Sometimes when life feels like it’s swallowing you, a change of pace is necessary. Such was our Thanksgiving this year. Doug and I had a simple day. Do I want to do it that way every year? No. But we absolutely loved making this year, the only year of our forty-seven years together, set apart for R & R. It felt so good. Give yourself permission to rest without family when life is gobbling you up.
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